| September 21, 2015 |
“Home is wherever you are.”
Is it? Just because I am here, does it mean I am home? And what is this location referring to–is it my mental or physical position? By definition, home is a noun–a place you can pin-point on a map, get directions to, and describe in length/width/height. Yet, I undoubtedly feel home is something more. It cannot be measured the number of bedrooms/bathrooms, windows, doors, or square footage. It’s not simply identifiable via coordinates of longitude and latitude. To me, the word “home” is much more of an adjective; a way to describe how we feel. The word “home” elicits feelings of comfort, support, and love. I can feel the word radiating from my heart.
home (noun) \ hōm \
the place where one lives permanently, especially as a member of a family or household.
synonyms: residence, place of residence, house, apartment, flat, bungalow, cottage
I don’t believe a location has permanent association with this elated feeling. It can change given various circumstances. For some time, living in my own apartment in South Florida has been refreshing. I’ve been able to walk into my own apartment after a day of work and decompress without interruption. I’ve created my own home where I feel free and completely myself. My walls are a mirror of my life, my passions, and my limited reality. Somehow, despite the significance of this place I’ve created, I have felt disconnected for some. It does not feel like home. It does not FEEL like it does to walk into my house in New York, greeted by my family (be it my parents or brothers). It does not FEEL like family dinner where we talk about our days, maybe have a few arguments, and clean the table together. It does not FEEL like a goodnight kiss. It does not FEEL like the security of knowing I am with people who love me unconditionally. I recognize this is a fleeting lack in my apartment. It has not eternally lost all associations with the feeling of “home,” but nothing has been able to fill the void of my true home–the place where my life began, and where a piece of my heart will forever remain.
“Home is wherever I’m with you.”
Isn’t it only appropriate that the word OM is encompassed within hOMe? The connection of HOME with our SPIRIT is deeper than we think…